“Let each man take the path according to his capacity, understanding and temperament. His true guru will meet him along that path.” - Sivananda Saraswati
Occasionally (or perhaps...frequently), I experience a feeling of doubt. In particular around the choices I make. If I see life as a path, it could be best described as a feeling of disorientation-- as a wanderer in a forest might experience.
It's a personal question that surfaces in the form of, "is this right?" Or, "how did I end up here?"
I imagine we ALL must go through this from time to time.
I can credit a bit of this feeling to cultural conditioning, we are, after all-- influenced heavily by a cultural narrative that implores us to a life of moral superiority, even if, the culture itself leaves much to be desired in that regard. Doing the "right thing" becomes a mental fabric in our myriad of momentary synapses.
Yet, beyond the influences of personal uncertainty, I can't help but feel the doubt itself is a necessary component of the path. Surely, calling into question "where you are" helps to define the next step. I couldn't be where I am today if I didn't have previous moments (or periods) of doubt.
Doubt is a catalyst for reform.
Reform, as in, making anew. There is a seeming paradox in the call (and truth) to ACCEPT the moment. I must accept the doubt even while recognizing it is, in part, a function of NOT accepting what is in front of me.
The relevance of all this chatter is simply to instill a rightness in each of our paths. It's easy to compare our choices to those of another, but to what end does that serve? My steps are mine. And while I fully believe in the ultimate inseparability and truth of connection between ALL of US, the diversity of personal experience is what gives ME...well, me actually.
Have confidence in your path.
Take your steps in perfected form.
Even the doubt.